A question to Sara about disturbing thoughts.
ANSWER: Indeed, you don’t want to die. In fact, the idea of death is an absurd one. You are an eternal being who has never been born and can never die. Energy is neither created nor destroyed. It simply is. You simply are.
You came into physical reality to experience things that would have been impossible from a non-physical perspective. Carrying thoughts, and feeling what they felt like, was one such exploration you intended to have. There is nothing wrong with thinking the thought “I want to die.” Those words, those letters, the sounds they make, only have meaning because they trigger fear within you. They cause you to ask questions about your mental state. They cause you to wonder why you are thinking them. They cause a whole lot of doubt and a whole lot of wobble in your vibration.
The words have no meaning beyond what you give to them. You could think it was funny. You could think it was the most important thought you’d ever attracted—for thoughts are attracted, and not created inside your brain. You could even dismiss it as complete noise.
Why do you choose to be troubled by these words? Because you have a limiting belied around death perhaps. Or a limiting belief around what you think you “should” be thinking. Maybe you think a spiritual person should not attract such thoughts. Maybe you think a spiritual person shouldn’t be attracting such thoughts. (from Sirgun: yep, the line was given twice!)
As you will learn in this journey you are embarking upon with the bootcamp, should is a limiting belief. It creates a false perception of reality in which there is right and wrong. There is nothing wrong with a thought. You can choose to attract a different one, however that cannot happen when your mind is consumed by the wrongness of the thought you are already holding on to.
You have some momentum with this thought now. It stirs up more fear than it did the first time you thought it perhaps. Perhaps it’s just become annoying. All of these reactions are keeping the thoughts present, with a certain intensity, in your vibration. The thought has nothing to do with death, or dying. The thought has to do with practicing your choice of thoughts. This is a great one to practice with because, as you have noticed, you cannot ignore it. It has gotten your attention. It has come to say: “Liesel, you have the power to choose your thoughts. Why do you persist in entertaining thoughts you don’t enjoy?” Death is simply a way to get your attention. Many people find that they ignore the earlier signals of a message and then they find themselves in a situation that grabs their attention. Disease is like this. Accidents. Foreclosures. There are many ways non-physical, which is you, tries to get your attention. It is not to scare you, it is FOR your benefit.
You do not want this thought to go away. You want to be the person who is no longer bothered by a thought you don’t care to entertain. You want to the person who can apply focus on the thoughts that she does enjoy. You want to the person who no longer gives energy and meaning to the parts of your life that are not serving you.
And all this will be done in love, which is to say acceptance, of what is. You cannot release something until you stop resisting it.
Do not be afraid of this thought. It too is here to help you. It too is here to show you how much you are loved. When you can see clearly enough to see that, the thought will go away on its own. You won’t even remember when it happened. And if it comes back, you will swat it away with less significance than you would swat a fly. It means nothing. You give it meaning.
With our love,